So after a year on PROSAC, or should I call it yes mam and no sir or do this and do that (totally numbed)I wander back to an abuser I had been with and was in the process of fleeing from on that eventful night.Managed to get ssi took that 11000 check applied it toward a dump bought a van a couch and kitchen table BOY I HAD IT MADE 450 a month !!!!!!SSI as it was told to me ,"It is just a partial payment to help you get by ", it is not to help you live just to exist! Paralyzed,a lost lung ,no more promises to make to some fine chap "hey we can have a family",diagnosed with post traumatic stress syndrome (that war vets come home with after war" and it would have been great if my momma and daddy were there to help me as parents do for their kids But ...no they were not ,after all ....it was daddy's gun!
Welll to say the least I found a fine gentleman who was living at mama's to help his family and you know after a year and a half I had to let him go I mean people are nieve and wiyh my pain inside and ot I could have destroyed his hard working fanny oh not on purpose but people do break some for awhile and some forever well I opened his cage and set him free!!!!yah girl you go!!So alone 6 month and afriend set me up determined this guy was good just broke alittle ok ok he could not travele outside a certain area panick attacks....Sorry I am tired I must log out now catch you on the flip side!
Well I had a plan I 'd married so many times before what was one more OH yeah at least they might offer some comfort but this time I was determined to find the opposite of the previous husbands
